Graduate school began in August.<\/p>\n
Ethan moved into a small apartment twenty minutes from campus.<\/p>\n
I offered furniture.<\/p>\n
He accepted a lamp.<\/p>\n
Melissa offered cookware.<\/p>\n
He accepted one pan.<\/p>\n
Richard offered money.<\/p>\n
Ethan accepted enough to cover a desk.<\/p>\n
Margaret offered advice.<\/p>\n
He declined.<\/p>\n
\u201cShe was offended,\u201d I told him.<\/p>\n
\u201cShe\u2019ll recover.\u201d<\/p>\n
We were learning.<\/p>\n
His program assigned him an internship at a family advocacy center.<\/p>\n
When he read the placement email, his first feeling was excitement.<\/p>\n
His second was dread.<\/p>\n
The center worked with children involved in custody disputes.<\/p>\n
Of course.<\/p>\n
He told Dr. Patel before telling me.<\/p>\n
That was healthy.<\/p>\n
I still disliked it.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat scares you?\u201d she asked.<\/p>\n
\u201cThat I\u2019ll see myself everywhere.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou probably will.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHelpful.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd sometimes you\u2019ll be wrong.\u201d<\/p>\n
That was harder.<\/p>\n
He knew what children under pressure looked like.<\/p>\n
He knew silence.<\/p>\n
Hypervigilance.<\/p>\n
Permission-seeking.<\/p>\n
But not every quiet child was him.<\/p>\n
Not every divorced parent was Melissa.<\/p>\n
Not every protective grandparent was me.<\/p>\n
Not every father gathering records was David.<\/p>\n
His job required recognition without projection.<\/p>\n
Harder than empathy.<\/p>\n
His first weeks were mostly paperwork.<\/p>\n
Training.<\/p>\n
Observation.<\/p>\n
Then his supervisor, Leah, assigned him to sit in on an intake.<\/p>\n
\u201cFamily name is Mercer.\u201d<\/p>\n
He opened the file.<\/p>\n
Mother: Julia Mercer.<\/p>\n
Father: Nathan Mercer.<\/p>\n
Child: Owen, age eleven.<\/p>\n
Grandmother involved.<\/p>\n
His stomach tightened.<\/p>\n
Leah noticed.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou okay?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
She waited.<\/p>\n
Ethan corrected.<\/p>\n
\u201cCase structure hits close.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWant me to reassign?\u201d<\/p>\n
His reflex said no immediately.<\/p>\n
Prove competence.<\/p>\n
Then he considered.<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cStill automatic.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou said no before thinking.\u201d<\/p>\n
He smiled.<\/p>\n
\u201cWorking on it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou can change your mind.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n
The intake happened in separate rooms.<\/p>\n
Owen arrived with his grandmother.<\/p>\n
Thin.<\/p>\n
Glasses.<\/p>\n
A sweatshirt too large.<\/p>\n
He sat with both hands between his knees.<\/p>\n
Ethan recognized too much.<\/p>\n
Leah led.<\/p>\n
\u201cDo you know why you\u2019re here?\u201d<\/p>\n
Owen shrugged.<\/p>\n
\u201cAdults are arguing about where you\u2019ll live.\u201d<\/p>\n
Another shrug.<\/p>\n
\u201cDo you want to talk?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOkay.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ethan watched.<\/p>\n
No pressure.<\/p>\n
Ten minutes passed.<\/p>\n
They discussed school.<\/p>\n
Science.<\/p>\n
A dog named Waffles.<\/p>\n
Then Owen asked:<\/p>\n
\u201cAre you going to make me pick?\u201d<\/p>\n
Ethan\u2019s body reacted before his mind.<\/p>\n
Chest tight.<\/p>\n
Hands cold.<\/p>\n
Leah answered calmly.<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
Owen looked suspicious.<\/p>\n
\u201cEveryone says that.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ethan knew that sentence.<\/p>\n
Leah asked:<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat happens after people say it?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThey ask where I want to live.\u201d<\/p>\n
She nodded.<\/p>\n
\u201cThat can feel like picking.\u201d<\/p>\n
Owen glanced at Ethan.<\/p>\n
\u201cDid you ever have to?\u201d<\/p>\n
Leah started to redirect.<\/p>\n
Ethan paused.<\/p>\n
Self-disclosure rules.<\/p>\n
Boundaries.<\/p>\n
He answered carefully.<\/p>\n
\u201cI was involved in a custody case when I was younger.\u201d<\/p>\n
Owen looked interested.<\/p>\n
\u201cDid you pick?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI told the truth about where I felt safest.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat happened?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat\u2019s my story.\u201d<\/p>\n
Owen frowned.<\/p>\n
Ethan continued.<\/p>\n
\u201cBut I remember how scary it felt to think somebody I loved would hear my answer as rejection.\u201d<\/p>\n
Owen looked down.<\/p>\n
\u201cThere.\u201d<\/p>\n
Leah\u2019s voice softened.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat looked important.\u201d<\/p>\n
Owen remained silent.<\/p>\n
Then:<\/p>\n
\u201cMy mom cries.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ethan felt the old room return.<\/p>\n
Not literally.<\/p>\n
Emotionally.<\/p>\n
A child adjusting truth to protect an adult.<\/p>\n
Leah asked:<\/p>\n
\u201cWhen?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhen I say I miss Dad.\u201d<\/p>\n
There it was.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat does she say?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat she\u2019s fine.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDo you believe her?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
Owen looked toward Ethan.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat are you supposed to do when they cry?\u201d<\/p>\n
He almost answered from instinct.<\/p>\n
Comfort them.<\/p>\n
Tell them it\u2019s not their fault.<\/p>\n
Explain.<\/p>\n
Instead:<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat do you usually do?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSay I don\u2019t want to see Dad.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ethan\u2019s throat tightened.<\/p>\n
\u201cEven when you do?\u201d<\/p>\n
Owen nodded.<\/p>\n
The resemblance hurt.<\/p>\n
Leah guided gently.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhose job is it to handle your mom\u2019s sadness?\u201d<\/p>\n
Owen shrugged.<\/p>\n
\u201cMy grandma says hers.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDo you believe that?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhy?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBecause if I cause it, it\u2019s mine.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ethan looked away briefly.<\/p>\n
At seven, he had believed the same.<\/p>\n
At twelve.<\/p>\n
At twenty-one, sometimes.<\/p>\n
After the intake, he went to the restroom and sat in a stall for five minutes.<\/p>\n
Not panic.<\/p>\n
Close.<\/p>\n
He texted Dr. Patel.<\/p>\n
Hard case. I\u2019m okay. Will discuss next session.<\/p>\n
Then texted me nothing.<\/p>\n
That was progress too.<\/p>\n
He did not need to report every difficult moment.<\/p>\n
Two weeks later, the Mercer case returned.<\/p>\n
Owen\u2019s parents agreed to counseling.<\/p>\n
Grandmother reduced direct involvement.<\/p>\n
No miracle.<\/p>\n
The mother continued crying sometimes.<\/p>\n
The father continued criticizing her.<\/p>\n
Owen continued editing his words.<\/p>\n
Change was slow.<\/p>\n
Ethan learned that knowing the correct emotional principles did not make families apply them immediately.<\/p>\n
He already knew this.<\/p>\n
Work made him feel it.<\/p>\n
One afternoon, Leah handed him an observation assignment.<\/p>\n
Family court.<\/p>\n
He stared at the location.<\/p>\n
Same courthouse.<\/p>\n
Same building.<\/p>\n
Possibly the same courtroom.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou okay?\u201d Leah asked.<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou can decline.\u201d<\/p>\n
He almost did.<\/p>\n
Then asked:<\/p>\n
\u201cCan I think?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cPlease.\u201d<\/p>\n
He called Dr. Patel.<\/p>\n
Not me.<\/p>\n
Not Melissa.<\/p>\n
\u201cDo you want to go?\u201d she asked.<\/p>\n
\u201cI think so.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhy?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cTo prove I can.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBad reason.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAnother?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cTo see it as work.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cMaybe.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAnother?\u201d<\/p>\n
He thought.<\/p>\n
\u201cBecause the building still owns part of my nervous system.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat\u2019s honest.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd maybe I want to walk in without being twelve.\u201d<\/p>\n
Dr. Patel paused.<\/p>\n
\u201cThat sounds different from proving something.\u201d<\/p>\n
He agreed to go.<\/p>\n
The morning of the observation, he wore a navy jacket.<\/p>\n
Not the same blazer.<\/p>\n
That blazer was long gone.<\/p>\n
Still, when he looked in the mirror, memory overlaid itself.<\/p>\n
Inside pocket.<\/p>\n
Phone.<\/p>\n
Recording.<\/p>\n
His hands shook.<\/p>\n
He noticed.<\/p>\n
Did not shame himself.<\/p>\n
At the courthouse, security had changed.<\/p>\n
New scanners.<\/p>\n
New paint.<\/p>\n
Same smell.<\/p>\n
Metal.<\/p>\n
Coffee.<\/p>\n
Floor cleaner.<\/p>\n
His stomach turned.<\/p>\n
Leah noticed.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou want out?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNot yet.\u201d<\/p>\n
They entered the courtroom.<\/p>\n
Different judge.<\/p>\n
Different attorneys.<\/p>\n
For twenty minutes, nothing happened.<\/p>\n
Then the bailiff opened the side door.<\/p>\n
An older man entered the gallery.<\/p>\n
Ethan froze.<\/p>\n
Judge Carlton.<\/p>\n
Retired now.<\/p>\n
No robe.<\/p>\n
Just a gray suit.<\/p>\n
He had apparently come to observe a former colleague.<\/p>\n
Ethan had not seen him in nine years.<\/p>\n
Carlton looked across the room.<\/p>\n
Recognition came slowly.<\/p>\n
Then immediately.<\/p>\n
His eyes widened.<\/p>\n
Ethan\u2019s breath stopped.<\/p>\n
The former judge approached during recess.<\/p>\n
\u201cEthan Carter?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
Carlton smiled.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019re taller.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat happens.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI hoped so.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ethan laughed nervously.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat are you doing here?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cInternship.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIn family advocacy.\u201d<\/p>\n
Carlton\u2019s expression changed.<\/p>\n
\u201cThat seems fitting.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ethan bristled slightly.<\/p>\n
Not because it was wrong.<\/p>\n
Because he had spent years wondering whether his career was simply his childhood turned professional.<\/p>\n
Carlton noticed.<\/p>\n
\u201cOr perhaps that was presumptuous.\u201d<\/p>\n
The correction surprised him.<\/p>\n
\u201cMaybe a little.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cFair.\u201d<\/p>\n
They stepped into the hallway.<\/p>\n
For a moment Ethan was twelve again.<\/p>\n
Then not.<\/p>\n
Carlton said, \u201cI\u2019ve thought about you.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhy?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou brought a recording into my courtroom.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI remember.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSo do I.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDid I do something wrong?\u201d<\/p>\n
Carlton looked surprised.<\/p>\n
\u201cLegally?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cPersonally.\u201d<\/p>\n
That was the question Ethan had carried longer than he realized.<\/p>\n
Had the recording betrayed his mother?<\/p>\n
Had telling the truth caused everything?<\/p>\n
Carlton considered carefully.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou were a child trying to communicate something adults had not managed to hear.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat isn\u2019t an answer.\u201d<\/p>\n
Carlton smiled slightly.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou always were direct.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOccupational hazard.\u201d<\/p>\n
The retired judge continued.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou should never have felt responsible for producing evidence.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ethan looked down.<\/p>\n
\u201cBut once you did, listening mattered.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWould you have believed me without it?\u201d<\/p>\n
The question came out sharper than intended.<\/p>\n
Carlton did not defend himself immediately.<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t know.\u201d<\/p>\n
That honesty stunned him.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou don\u2019t?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThen I needed it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cPerhaps.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ethan stared.<\/p>\n
Carlton continued.<\/p>\n
\u201cBut that does not mean you should have needed it.\u201d<\/p>\n
There.<\/p>\n
The distinction.<\/p>\n
\u201cThe adults should have created conditions where your words carried enough weight.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ethan\u2019s eyes filled.<\/p>\n
\u201cDid you think Mom was bad?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDid you think Grandma was better?\u201d<\/p>\n
Carlton shook his head.<\/p>\n
\u201cI was not choosing which woman was morally superior.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat were you choosing?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThe least destabilizing arrangement available at that time.\u201d<\/p>\n
That sounded less dramatic than memory.<\/p>\n
More accurate.<\/p>\n
\u201cDid my recording decide everything?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ethan frowned.<\/p>\n
\u201cIt felt like it did.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI understand.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat mattered?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYour school history. Counseling information. living stability. Your mother\u2019s testimony. Ruth\u2019s documentation.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd the recording.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBut not alone.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
Years of memory shifted slightly.<\/p>\n
The recording had been central.<\/p>\n
Not magical.<\/p>\n
Not the single object that decided his life.<\/p>\n
Ethan asked, \u201cDid you know Dad had wanted Grandma as temporary guardian?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
That hurt.<\/p>\n
\u201cIf you had known?\u201d<\/p>\n
Carlton shook his head.<\/p>\n
\u201cI won\u2019t rewrite a case based on hypothetical evidence nine years later.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ethan respected that.<\/p>\n
Then the former judge said:<\/p>\n
\u201cI do remember one thing very clearly.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAfter the hearing, you looked at me as if I had decided whether your mother loved you.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ethan became still.<\/p>\n
\u201cDid I?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat did you think?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat courts are poor places to answer that question.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ethan looked away.<\/p>\n
Carlton continued.<\/p>\n
\u201cI could decide residence.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNot love.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ethan smiled sadly.<\/p>\n
\u201cIt took us years to learn that.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cMost families take longer.\u201d<\/p>\n
The bailiff called everyone back.<\/p>\n
Before leaving, Carlton asked:<\/p>\n
\u201cAre you happy?\u201d<\/p>\n
Ethan hesitated.<\/p>\n
Old answer: yes.<\/p>\n
Automatic.<\/p>\n
Protective.<\/p>\n
He thought.<\/p>\n
\u201cSometimes.\u201d<\/p>\n
Carlton smiled.<\/p>\n
\u201cGood answer.\u201d<\/p>\n
Then Ethan said:<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m angry sometimes too.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAlso good.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd scared.\u201d<\/p>\n
Carlton nodded.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou seem to have acquired a larger emotional vocabulary.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cTherapy.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cUseful institution.\u201d<\/p>\n
They shook hands.<\/p>\n
As Carlton walked away, Ethan experienced something he had not expected.<\/p>\n
The courthouse became smaller.<\/p>\n
Not physically.<\/p>\n
In memory.<\/p>\n
For years it had been the place where truth became dangerous enough to require a recording.<\/p>\n
Now it was also just a building.<\/p>\n
People entered.<\/p>\n
People left.<\/p>\n
Judges made imperfect decisions from limited evidence.<\/p>\n
Children survived.<\/p>\n
Adults changed.<\/p>\n
Sometimes.<\/p>\n
After work, Ethan drove to my house.<\/p>\n
I was pruning a plant incorrectly.<\/p>\n
He took the shears from me.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat happened?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhy do you assume something happened?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou only attack plants when emotional.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI do not.\u201d<\/p>\n
He smiled.<\/p>\n
\u201cI saw Judge Carlton.\u201d<\/p>\n
The shears stopped.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAt court.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHow was he?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOld.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat happens.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHe remembered me.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI imagine.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ethan sat on the porch.<\/p>\n
I joined him.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat did you talk about?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThe recording.\u201d<\/p>\n
My stomach tightened.<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHe said it mattered.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBut it wasn\u2019t everything.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI think I made it everything.\u201d<\/p>\n
I looked at him.<\/p>\n
\u201cHow?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cLike pressing play saved me.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIt helped.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBut?\u201d<\/p>\n
He stared toward the yard.<\/p>\n
\u201cMaybe I needed one moment where I could believe I saved myself.\u201d<\/p>\n
My chest tightened.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou were twelve.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou did something brave.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThose things can both be true.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
He smiled.<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m getting annoyingly good at that.\u201d<\/p>\n
We sat quietly.<\/p>\n
Then his phone buzzed.<\/p>\n
Marcus.<\/p>\n
Ethan read the message.<\/p>\n
Mom and I had a fight. I\u2019m okay. Not asking you to fix it. Just telling you.<\/p>\n
Ethan showed me.<\/p>\n
I laughed.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHe\u2019s learning faster than we did.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cLow bar.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ethan typed:<\/p>\n
Glad you told me. Want to talk or just be heard?<\/p>\n
Marcus replied:<\/p>\n
Just heard.<\/p>\n
Ethan put the phone down.<\/p>\n
No follow-up.<\/p>\n
No advice.<\/p>\n
No intervention.<\/p>\n
Ten seconds passed.<\/p>\n
Then twenty.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou okay?\u201d I asked.<\/p>\n
He smiled.<\/p>\n
\u201cUncomfortable.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cGood.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cApparently.\u201d<\/p>\n
That evening, as he prepared to leave, he noticed Daniel\u2019s watch on my wrist.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019re wearing it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHow\u2019s that feel?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cLike it belongs to time again.\u201d<\/p>\n
He looked at me.<\/p>\n
\u201cThat sounded annoyingly poetic.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI learned from you.\u201d<\/p>\n
The watch ticked.<\/p>\n
No frozen birth.<\/p>\n
No preserved death.<\/p>\n
Just seconds passing.<\/p>\n
Ethan opened the door.<\/p>\n
Then stopped.<\/p>\n
\u201cGrandma?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIf I ever start doing what Dad did\u2014hiding something serious because I don\u2019t want you to worry\u2014\u201d<\/p>\n
I knew where the sentence was going.<\/p>\n
\u201cTell you?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
I shook my head.<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
He frowned.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIf you hide something serious, how am I supposed to know?\u201d<\/p>\n
Fair.<\/p>\n
\u201cThen what?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou tell me.\u201d<\/p>\n
He smiled.<\/p>\n
\u201cThat\u2019s inconvenient.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cFine.\u201d<\/p>\n
He opened the door.<\/p>\n
Then looked back.<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m scared about the internship.\u201d<\/p>\n
My first instinct rose.<\/p>\n
You\u2019ll be great.<\/p>\n
Don\u2019t worry.<\/p>\n
You\u2019re meant for this.<\/p>\n
Instead I asked:<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat part?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSeeing kids like me.\u201d<\/p>\n
I waited.<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd becoming too invested.\u201d<\/p>\n
I nodded.<\/p>\n
\u201cAnything else?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cFailing someone.\u201d<\/p>\n
There.<\/p>\n
The oldest fear.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat if you do?\u201d<\/p>\n
His face tightened.<\/p>\n
\u201cI hate that question.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat if I do?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou repair what you can.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd if I can\u2019t?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThen you learn what belongs to you.\u201d<\/p>\n
He looked down.<\/p>\n
David\u2019s final letter without hearing the words.<\/p>\n
Let other people repair what belongs to them.<\/p>\n
Ethan nodded.<\/p>\n
\u201cOkay.\u201d<\/p>\n
He left.<\/p>\n
And for once, neither of us mistook fear for a prediction.<\/p>\n
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