{"id":5714,"date":"2026-09-29T01:06:13","date_gmt":"2026-09-29T01:06:13","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/feeleverystory.online\/?p=5714"},"modified":"2026-09-29T01:06:13","modified_gmt":"2026-09-29T01:06:13","slug":"part-24-mediation-put-marcus-across-the-table-from-me-again-and-for-once-he-answered-without-asking-me-to-share-the-blame","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/feeleverystory.online\/?p=5714","title":{"rendered":"PART 24 \u2013 Mediation Put Marcus Across the Table From Me Again, and for Once He Answered Without Asking Me to Share the Blame"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>The mediation took place in a conference center attached to a law office downtown.<\/p>\n<p>Neutral territory.<\/p>\n<p>No kitchen memories.<\/p>\n<p>No wedding photographs.<\/p>\n<p>No couch where Marcus had brought me coffee every weekend.<\/p>\n<p>Just beige walls, bottled water, legal pads, and a long table designed for people who no longer trusted conversation without witnesses.<\/p>\n<p>Dana arrived first.<\/p>\n<p>Priya joined for the financial portion.<\/p>\n<p>Marcus entered with his attorney ten minutes later.<\/p>\n<p>I had not seen him in nearly two weeks.<\/p>\n<p>He looked thinner.<\/p>\n<p>His hair was shorter.<\/p>\n<p>Not dramatically transformed.<\/p>\n<p>Just worn down around the edges.<\/p>\n<p>He stopped when he saw me.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cElena.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I nodded.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cMarcus.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>His eyes stayed on my face a second too long.<\/p>\n<p>Then his attorney guided him toward the opposite side.<\/p>\n<p>Nobody hugged.<\/p>\n<p>Nobody shook hands.<\/p>\n<p>I was grateful.<\/p>\n<p>The mediator, a retired judge named Helen Ward, explained the process.<\/p>\n<p>Confidential.<\/p>\n<p>Voluntary.<\/p>\n<p>Focused on resolution.<\/p>\n<p>No one was required to agree.<\/p>\n<p>We began with finances.<\/p>\n<p>Numbers were easier.<\/p>\n<p>The house.<\/p>\n<p>Mortgage.<\/p>\n<p>Refinance liability.<\/p>\n<p>Line of credit.<\/p>\n<p>Northstar.<\/p>\n<p>Hale Meridian.<\/p>\n<p>Retirement accounts.<\/p>\n<p>The Laura brokerage account.<\/p>\n<p>Legal fees.<\/p>\n<p>Business distributions.<\/p>\n<p>Camille-related benefits.<\/p>\n<p>For hours, my marriage was expressed in columns.<\/p>\n<p>Marcus agreed to more than I expected.<\/p>\n<p>He accepted responsibility for the disputed line of credit subject to final lender resolution.<\/p>\n<p>Agreed that refinance conduct had occurred without my informed consent.<\/p>\n<p>His attorney phrased it more carefully than I would have.<\/p>\n<p>But Marcus did not dispute the substance.<\/p>\n<p>He agreed to reimburse the marital estate for improper Hale Meridian expenditures associated with Camille and the investigator.<\/p>\n<p>Adrian\u2019s issues would be handled separately through business accounting.<\/p>\n<p>Northstar would be allocated by tracing rather than blanket designation.<\/p>\n<p>The forty-six-thousand-dollar E.F. account would transfer to me.<\/p>\n<p>The house could transfer to me if refinancing into my name proved feasible.<\/p>\n<p>Otherwise it would be sold and equity divided under the settlement formula.<\/p>\n<p>No fantasy.<\/p>\n<p>No guarantee.<\/p>\n<p>Just practical outcomes.<\/p>\n<p>When the mediator called for lunch, Marcus remained seated.<\/p>\n<p>His attorney whispered something.<\/p>\n<p>Marcus nodded.<\/p>\n<p>Then both attorneys stepped outside with the mediator.<\/p>\n<p>Dana paused beside me.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou want privacy?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>She understood.<\/p>\n<p>She stayed.<\/p>\n<p>Marcus looked at her.<\/p>\n<p>Then at me.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI won\u2019t ask you to leave,\u201d I said to Dana.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cGood,\u201d she replied.<\/p>\n<p>Marcus almost smiled.<\/p>\n<p>The old Marcus would have found that funny.<\/p>\n<p>The smile disappeared before fully forming.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cHow\u2019s your mother?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I stared at him.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cShe\u2019s processing.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He nodded.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI\u2019m sorry about your dad.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>That sentence hit hard.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou don\u2019t get to be sorry like you just learned.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cDo you?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He looked down at his hands.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI\u2019ve replayed those hospital conversations.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cSo have I. Except I didn\u2019t know they existed.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He flinched.<\/p>\n<p>Fair.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI should have told you.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI should have told you all of it.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>No soothing.<\/p>\n<p>No helping him confess.<\/p>\n<p>He took a breath.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cMy job is probably gone.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I said nothing.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cCamille\u2019s complaint is supported.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThey found expense issues.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cMy director asked why I told him Camille was unstable.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I looked at him.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhat did you say?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThat I was trying to protect myself.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>The answer surprised me.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cFrom what?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cConsequences.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>At least he knew the word now.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI kept thinking if I could frame everything correctly, people would understand why I did it.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAnd?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAnd explanations aren\u2019t the same as justification.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Dana said nothing.<\/p>\n<p>She was good at becoming furniture when needed.<\/p>\n<p>Marcus continued.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI blamed you for being distant.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I waited.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou weren\u2019t.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Something tightened in my chest.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou were tired. Your dad was sick. Work was bad. I knew all of that.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I looked at him.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThen why tell Rachel and Camille otherwise?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBecause if you were a bad wife, I didn\u2019t have to be the man choosing to betray a good one.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>There.<\/p>\n<p>Clean.<\/p>\n<p>Ugly.<\/p>\n<p>No defense.<\/p>\n<p>I absorbed it.<\/p>\n<p>He continued.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI told myself Camille understood me better.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBecause she knew less.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI told myself Rachel and I had unfinished history.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou wanted attention.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI told myself Adrian deserved another chance.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou wanted to fix your old failure.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI told myself the investment would make you proud after it succeeded.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou knew I would refuse.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>No resistance.<\/p>\n<p>It was almost unsettling.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhy did you use Laura?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBecause she looked enough like you.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>The bluntness hurt.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou planned it.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhy the ring?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cTo make the verification more convincing.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cRachel\u2019s ring.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He looked ashamed.<\/p>\n<p>Good.<\/p>\n<p>Not because I wanted suffering.<\/p>\n<p>Because shame was appropriate.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhat about the fake letters?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI wrote them.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cCamille\u2019s signature?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cCopied.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cMy signature?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cCopied.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cDaniel\u2019s address?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Marcus closed his eyes.<\/p>\n<p>That one mattered.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI wanted a mailing address that wasn\u2019t connected to me.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhy Daniel?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He hesitated.<\/p>\n<p>I felt old irritation rise.<\/p>\n<p>Then he answered.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBecause if the company ever came up during divorce, I thought his address might create enough confusion to make you look connected.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Dana\u2019s posture changed slightly.<\/p>\n<p>I already suspected it.<\/p>\n<p>Hearing him admit it was different.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou intentionally created evidence that could make me look dishonest.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>My stomach turned.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThat is one of the worst things you did.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cDo you?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>His eyes filled.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBut it never became a full plan.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I stared.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cDo not minimize it.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He nodded immediately.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou\u2019re right. I chose the address for that reason. Whether I used it later doesn\u2019t change that.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Better.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhat about the investigator?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI wanted to know whether you were looking at accounts.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAnd whether I\u2019d hired a lawyer.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou told them I was diverting money.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou knew I wasn\u2019t.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI suspected you weren\u2019t.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThat\u2019s worse.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>The answers kept coming.<\/p>\n<p>Not because Marcus had suddenly become morally transformed.<\/p>\n<p>Maybe because every other strategy had failed.<\/p>\n<p>Or because the truth no longer threatened to destroy something he could still keep.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhat about the trust?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>His face tightened.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI changed it when I was angry.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBecause?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI thought if you left me after everything came out, your family shouldn\u2019t benefit from money that started with mine.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThat\u2019s exactly what your memo said.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cDo you still believe that?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhy not?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He looked at me.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBecause your mother wasn\u2019t part of our divorce.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>The simplicity mattered.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAnd she was only a beneficiary because I promised your father I\u2019d make sure she was okay.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>My throat tightened.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThen you made that promise conditional on me staying.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhich made it not much of a promise.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>We sat quietly.<\/p>\n<p>Then I asked the question I had brought.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhy did you think loving me gave you the right to decide which reality I lived in?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Marcus looked down.<\/p>\n<p>For a long time he said nothing.<\/p>\n<p>His attorney returned to the doorway, saw we were talking, then stepped back out.<\/p>\n<p>Finally Marcus spoke.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI don\u2019t think I thought of it that way.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThat\u2019s not an answer.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He rubbed his palms together.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI think I believed love meant managing outcomes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I waited.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cMy dad did that constantly. Bad news, money, affairs, everything. He\u2019d decide what Mom needed to know based on what would keep the house functioning.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYour mother suffered.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou hated him for it.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThen copied him.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Marcus closed his eyes.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He swallowed.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI thought I was different because I used the secrets to keep things stable.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I almost laughed.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cFrank probably told himself the same thing.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou hid debt before marrying me.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou hid money.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou used my identity.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou cheated.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou watched me through investigators.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou prepared evidence that could make me look dishonest.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>His voice broke.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhere was the stability?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He had no answer.<\/p>\n<p>That was the point.<\/p>\n<p>The stability existed only for Marcus.<\/p>\n<p>As long as I didn\u2019t know, he didn\u2019t have to endure my choices.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhat would you have done if I never found out?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He looked at me.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI don\u2019t know.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cTry.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI probably would have told myself I was going to confess later.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>There it was.<\/p>\n<p>Future honesty.<\/p>\n<p>Always tomorrow.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWould you have ended things with Rachel?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cCamille?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cShe had already ended it.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThat wasn\u2019t my question.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Marcus looked down.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI don\u2019t know.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWould you have corrected the refinance?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cClosed the line of credit?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cEventually.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cTold me about Northstar?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cProbably not.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>That answer hurt the most because it sounded true.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cSo the life you wanted was one where you loved me and I remained uninformed.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>His voice barely carried.<\/p>\n<p>I leaned back.<\/p>\n<p>That was all I needed.<\/p>\n<p>Not because it solved anything.<\/p>\n<p>Because it named the marriage I had actually been living.<\/p>\n<p>Marcus looked up.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI did love you.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He seemed surprised.<\/p>\n<p>I continued.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI stopped needing to prove you didn\u2019t.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Tears filled his eyes.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThen why\u2014\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBecause love wasn\u2019t the disputed fact.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He went still.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThe problem was what you thought love permitted you to do.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>His mouth tightened.<\/p>\n<p>I felt tears rising too.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI believe you loved me when you brought coffee upstairs.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He covered his mouth.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI believe you loved me when Mom got sick.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>His shoulders shook.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI believe you loved me when you sat with Dad.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>A tear slipped down my cheek.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAnd I believe you loved me while lying to all three of us.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Marcus cried openly.<\/p>\n<p>I did not look away.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThat is why I\u2019m leaving.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Not because love had been fake.<\/p>\n<p>Because reality had been controlled.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou don\u2019t have to turn yourself into someone who never loved me for this divorce to make sense.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He whispered, \u201cI\u2019m sorry.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI\u2019m sorry for your father.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI\u2019m sorry about the money.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cCamille.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cRachel.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cLaura.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Then he said, \u201cDaniel.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>That almost made me smile.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYes. Daniel too.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He wiped his face.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhat happens to us?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThe marriage ends.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He closed his eyes.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI mean after.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI don\u2019t know.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>That was honest.<\/p>\n<p>There might be holidays years later where our mothers still spoke.<\/p>\n<p>Legal documents.<\/p>\n<p>Tax matters.<\/p>\n<p>Maybe never another personal conversation.<\/p>\n<p>Maybe one.<\/p>\n<p>I didn\u2019t need to decide today.<\/p>\n<p>The mediator returned.<\/p>\n<p>We spent another four hours negotiating.<\/p>\n<p>Not everything resolved.<\/p>\n<p>But enough.<\/p>\n<p>Marcus agreed to temporary financial preservation.<\/p>\n<p>I agreed to proceed toward global settlement after final forensic accounting.<\/p>\n<p>No dramatic courthouse victory.<\/p>\n<p>No destruction.<\/p>\n<p>A structured exit.<\/p>\n<p>At the end of the day, I gathered my papers.<\/p>\n<p>Marcus remained across the table.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cElena.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I looked.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThe studio picture.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>My chest tightened.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhat about it?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI hated it.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNot because you looked beautiful.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I waited.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBecause you and Rachel were standing together.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>There it was.<\/p>\n<p>Exactly.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI knew the second I saw it that the stories were going to touch.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I almost smiled.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cThey did.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He nodded.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI thought I could keep every part separate.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhy?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBecause that\u2019s how I kept them manageable.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Rachel got one Marcus.<\/p>\n<p>Camille another.<\/p>\n<p>Adrian another.<\/p>\n<p>Laura another.<\/p>\n<p>Diane another.<\/p>\n<p>My father another.<\/p>\n<p>Me another.<\/p>\n<p>The photograph collapsed compartments.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhat did you think when you saw the picture?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Marcus asked.<\/p>\n<p>I remembered.<\/p>\n<p>The black dress.<\/p>\n<p>Rachel beside me.<\/p>\n<p>The camera.<\/p>\n<p>The strange laughter.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI thought I was proving I wasn\u2019t threatened by her.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAnd?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI was wrong.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He looked confused.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI wasn\u2019t proving anything.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I lifted my bag.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI was finally asking the wrong person the right questions.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>He lowered his eyes.<\/p>\n<p>I walked toward the door.<\/p>\n<p>Then he said my name once.<\/p>\n<p>I stopped.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI won\u2019t ask you to forgive me.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I looked back.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cGood.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI hope someday you believe I\u2019m sorry.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI believe you\u2019re sorry now.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>His face changed.<\/p>\n<p>That was apparently more painful.<\/p>\n<p>Because remorse did not create obligation.<\/p>\n<p>I opened the door.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cElena.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I glanced back one final time.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cWhat?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI changed the trust back.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI didn\u2019t do it for settlement.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cOkay.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI just wanted you to know.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I nodded.<\/p>\n<p>Then left.<\/p>\n<p>Outside, evening had cooled the city.<\/p>\n<p>Dana walked beside me toward the parking garage.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYou okay?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I smiled faintly.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cStill a strange unit of measurement.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>She looked puzzled.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cInside joke.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>At the elevator, my phone buzzed.<\/p>\n<p>A message from Rachel.<\/p>\n<p>How did mediation go?<\/p>\n<p>I typed:<\/p>\n<p>He finally told the truth without making me responsible for it.<\/p>\n<p>She replied after a moment.<\/p>\n<p>That sounds expensive.<\/p>\n<p>I laughed.<\/p>\n<p>More than she knew.<\/p>\n<p>Then she sent:<\/p>\n<p>Photos came back 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