Ethan visited my house one summer afternoon.<\/p>\n
He walked into the kitchen and smiled.<\/p>\n
\u201cNothing changed.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat is because I refuse to let anyone renovate.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYour cabinets are ancient.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThey have character.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThey have loose handles.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cCharacter.\u201d<\/p>\n
He laughed.<\/p>\n
Then he walked toward the hallway.<\/p>\n
The guest room was still there.<\/p>\n
The room where he had slept as a child.<\/p>\n
The room where he had hidden beneath blankets after nightmares.<\/p>\n
The room where he had once believed he needed evidence before anyone would believe him.<\/p>\n
He stood in the doorway.<\/p>\n
\u201cI was so scared.\u201d<\/p>\n
I knew exactly what he meant.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou were twelve.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI thought everything was my fault.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n
He touched the doorframe.<\/p>\n
\u201cBut I believed it.\u201d<\/p>\n
I walked beside him.<\/p>\n
\u201cThat was never yours to carry.\u201d<\/p>\n
He nodded.<\/p>\n
\u201cI know that now.\u201d<\/p>\n
The difference between those two sentences mattered.<\/p>\n
Knowing something intellectually was different from believing it emotionally.<\/p>\n
Ethan had spent years moving between the two.<\/p>\n
Before leaving, he took one last look at the room.<\/p>\n
\u201cDo you ever miss that kid?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThe one who walked here?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
I thought about it.<\/p>\n
\u201cI miss parts of him.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhich parts?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHis honesty.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ethan smiled.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat about the fear?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m glad he survived it.\u201d<\/p>\n
That answer stayed with him.<\/p>\n
Not every part of ourselves needs to be erased.<\/p>\n
Some parts simply need to be thanked and allowed to rest.<\/p>\n
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